i swear, half the people that have me listed will probably stop reading after this entry, but i dont care enough to be quiet.

its pathetic that i have to keep reminding myself that i shouldnt write for an audience.

cue offensive bitching.

i dont like christians.

that sounds awful, but..well, it is. there are certainly some i like.

its not a "if you're christian, i dont like you." kind of thing.

hell, i'm partially christian. well. sort of. maybe. okay, not so much. but i definately adopted some of their beliefs along the way.

& its not the religion itself. i think its a fine thing to believe in.

but theres this whole group of overly religious idiots that annoy the crap out of me.

& they're fine until they bring god into EVERYTHING

fucking hell, is that ALL you know how to talk about?

i dont get it. so you have your god & your religion, GREAT, really, i am ecstatic for you.

BUT WHY THE FUCK CANT YOU BE NORMAL

if something bad happens, oh well god has a plan.

if something good happens, you just knew that if you put your faith in god everything would turn out okay.

newsflash. EVERYTHING TURNS OUT THE WAY ITS SUPPOSED TO

god isnt active in your life & he isnt your source of strength.

i mean, sure, i believe he/she/it exists.

but tell me how god is active in your life.

seriously, leave me a note. because i want to know.

the thing that irritates me the most is that none of you ever have any concrete answers.

how can you be happy with that?

dont you feel insecure closing your eyes?

does god honestly answer when you talk to him?

doesnt it make you feel so out of tune with most of the population?

i tend to get sick of these things quickly, but if you read this, for fucks sake, give me some sort of a response.

give me answers, give me curses.

knowing that you're just like everyone else would make us all feel alot better.

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